A mad, mad dream

woah, that was a strange dream… i dreamt. Andrew was there, and he was angry at me, because I didn’t submit my S1P1 project, and it’s like I was getting kicked out of the course or something, or at least that’s what it felt like. Very strange, and then I recall Philip was there (different scene), I believe he was also displeased with me. He was standing at the front of the class, and from his bag he pulled out a bottle of wine, saying to the class, “Do you know what this does? …It makes you forget.” And then the image blurs and I wake up.

Very strange… I haven’t had an odd dream like that in ages (of course I rarely log my dreams either, and, as most people would agree, they usually forget about their dreams the moment something else happens). “It makes you forget,” wow. I haven’t been drinking lately so I don’t think it has anything to do with that… Maybe I want to forget about something.. hmm i dunno i can’t really think about anthing right now (…maybe I’ve already forgotten 🙂 ) As Kelsey Grammer’s character Frasier Crane once said on the tv sitcom Frasier, “Dreams are but a by-product of the subconsious.”

Perhaps it’s a message, saying I should stop procrastinating and get my work done. I know, I know that I should’ve completed this a long time ago, but , I dunno, it seems i’ve yet to complete it. But I plan to complete it, asap. i’m just so easily distracted, is all. you know what i’ve gotta do then? I’ve gotta get rid of all those things that may take away my attention from my main focus. it’s just one of those things that keeps seeming to happen everytime. The only time I probably get something actually done is minutes before it’s due. I guess pressure movitates me. and now it’s weeks past the deadline and I’m still not done it. WHAT is WRONG WITH ME? DO I NOT HAVE THE ABILITY TO STAY FOCUSED ON ONE BLOODLY THING AT ONE BLOODY TIME?? I MEAN, MY TIME MANAGEMENT SKILLS ARE REALLY FUCKED UP. I need to heal myself. Yoga sounds good (however I’ve never done it, and I don’t think contorting my body into odd positions will help). Meditation. Strict meditation. With Eastern music cleansing my mind with it’s delicate, magical notes. Why don’t I own any Eastern music? I must get some. I need to go on a trip to India. I’ve been planning one since last June however I’ve never been there yet. I so want to go. Hey, reading week is coming up and I’ve got some free time (well, I was hoping so, but I’ve probably got some work to do. I could just take it with me. After All, I enjoy doing web design. But the key is Balance, not too much or too little of anything. From what it seems like, some would say (and have) that I’m doing a bit too much slacking these days. It’s throwing my whole disciplinary self(?) off. So, in order to repair this, I think I’ve got to repopulate my immense amount of free time. Just always fill my schedule up with something so I’ve always got something to do, not forgetting to pencil in relaxation and healing time, of course. I’m a big fan of GTD, however I never seem to be able to do so most of the time (oh, the irony). For some good GTD tips, visit Merlin Mann’s personal productivity site 43folders.com. He’s got some great tips in there.

But now, I think it’s obvious what I’ve gotta get done now. I’ve gotta shower, then get straight to work on my S1p1. It’s not even that much to do. I don’t know why I’ve been putting it off for so long. But today will be the day when I finally complete it and it will haunt me no more! Now, off to work and onto the road of Getting Things Done!

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